Everything is preparation for the future.
Don’t cry about what it looks like now, just know a process is happening. Try to soak in all of the knowledge you can from every situation you encounter. Pray for understanding when you’re confused and look for his answers and confirmation.
You’ve accepted your call and are being tested. Pulled, pushed, and prodded, to be molded to fit your purpose.
So much is coming your way and the only thing block your blessings is you. And I’m not talking worldly sins, I’m talking mentally and spiritually blocking your blessings. You’re blocking your blessing because you refuse to go deeper. Look at your actions. Every single one. The jobs you chose, how your hobbies have changed, the way your focus shifts from one thing to the next. Look at your behavior and consider all of the confusion you’ve been sitting in.
Now tell me where God was supposed to drop in at your grand blessing of increase……I’ll wait.
With the way you were acting, did you really expect your dream job to come to fruition? Did you really expect him to bless you with a spouse? More money or material possessions?? Couldn’t have. You’ve lost your way and now you need to get back to the basics. God is stripping you down.
Start over. Shake your friends. Cut the radio off one time. Listen to Him. What did HE say? Are you paying attention? He’s pointing you right in the direction of your blessings and you keep looking the wrong way. You’re worried about what she’s got, or what he’s doing, or how they got that, and you’re distracting YOURSELF from God. You can’t take hold to those blessings because you’re too busy trying to decipher issues that have nothing to do with you. But what’s funny is He’s just sitting there. He’s watching you and shaking His head. “Look at her. How many times have we been through this? I’m not doing this again. She knows how to get out.”
You know, this reminds me of all of the times I’ve fussed at Aiden for not paying attention.
I’ll tell Aiden to grab the lock, twist it to unlock it, and then pull to open the door. He’ll spend two minutes touching all over the door, as if he’s blind, saying that he can’t find the lock. This is driving me crazy, but I don’t say anything, because I know him. He’s too smart to be playing this game, and I’m boiling over on the inside, but I let him do it. He grabs the lock and moves his hand in the twisting motion, but he’s not ACTUALLY moving the lock. I remind him of the instructions: Grab the lock, now twist it. He continues to play around until I yell out “Aiden!”
I had to bring him back from that fantasy world he fell into, because he obviously forgot we’re trying to get somewhere. “Stop playing!”
He’s got a firm grip on the lock.
Are you with me?
He’s holding this lock, firmly. In. His. Hand. I’m getting excited because we’re finally to the last step. My child’s got it!! I even cheer for him a little bit. “Yes! You got it! Now twist!”
Chile. Wouldn’t you know, this boy starts to complain?! “It’s too hard. Can you help me? I can’t twist it.” He’s huffing and puffing and sighing all loud. I’m so confused by this boy. I don’t understand why this is so hard. How many doors have you opened today? Some heavy, some light, some with locks and without locks…..PLUS. I gave clear and precise instructions on how to get through this door! But I keep a cool head, because this is my child. I grab his hand, and I help him twist the lock, then I step back and tell him to pull the door open.
*sigh* Now Aiden is too caught up in himself to realize what’s happened. He’s mad that I had to help him, but he’s also mad that I backed off and didn’t just open the door for him.
How much sense does that make?? I cry and plead for help through this one step, but now I’m mad that you did exactly what I asked for?? You’re so busy making this about you and how YOU feel, that you’re missing the blessing in the midst.
He gave you the extra push you needed and now you’re missing your opportunity to flex your strength and show Him you can finish. You’re completely missing the point. The finish line is right there. OPEN THE DOOR. All you’ve gotta do is pull. Pull that door open to move on to what’s next. Your dream job is on the other side of that door. You’re confusing yourself with all of this anger, frustration, depression. All the back and forth. All the flip flopping, and self-induced stress. Get beyond. Go forth.
I know the door is heavy, and you may even be mentally exhausted from the previous steps, but this is the easy part.
You’re on the edge of a blessing today. Rid yourself of the distractions, focus in on your Instructor, take that last step, and open that door.